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DJ AM’s life was a series of brushes with death. But was it drugs and a bad breakup that finally did him in?

 According to People, Adam Goldstein, who was found dead in

his apartment this week surrounded by drug paraphernalia and with a half-empty bag of crack cocaine stuck to his chest,  tried to kill himself when he was 22, after a cocaine binge.

DJAM_Donat_1224258_600"I squinted my eyes and said —- this," he told Glamour magazine. "I pulled the trigger." 

Miraculously, the gun didn't go off.

Goldstein, who had a long struggle with addiction, finally

got sober through recovery meetings

and he underwent gastric bypass surgery to lose 155 pounds.

 "I've been a recovering addict for 11 years." he

said at a Television Critics' Assn. panel in Pasadena on July 29,  promoting his new MTV drug recovery

series, "Gone Too Far."

Read more about what else almost killed DJ AM:

]]>After surviving last year's fatal plane crash that killed four others, he was treated for third-degree burns. While in the hospital, he learned of a potentially fatal blood clot that, he said, "could have traveled to my heart and I could have died."

As might be expected, he had recurring post-crash nightmares of a man chasing him with a blowtorch and People reveals that DJ AM had plans to meet with a professional for post-traumatic stress disorder.

 "There's no reason why I should have lived or I lived and they didn't," he said in July. "And it's something I struggle with every day."

 Could PTSD counseling have helped DJ AM?

People also reports that his American Apparel model girlfriend Hayley Wood and the situation had left him an emotional wreck. 

"The breakup hurt him. He hadn't been in a good place lately. For the past week, he wasn't really around, he was keeping to himself, and he was blowing people off," says the People source.

More Adam Goldstein news:

DJ AM's final interview about his recovery reality show on MTV

Friends tweet about Adam Goldstein's shocking death.

DJ AM: "I jumped through a fireball!"

DJ AM files suit for plane crash

Adam Goldstein cheats death again…

Updated: Photos: DJ AM throwing out the first ball at Citi Field in New York last week.* DJ AM before gastric bypass surgery. Credit: WireImage.

*An earlier version of this caption identified the ballpark as Yankee Stadium