“We don’t have to talk ever again in my life,” Rihanna says, by way of explaining why she agreed to ease the restraining order against ex Chris Brown, in the April issue of Rolling Stone.
“I just didn’t want to make it more difficult for him professionally. What he did was a personal thing — it had nothing to do with his career. Saying he has to be a hundred feet away from me, he can’t perform at awards shows — that definitely made it difficult for him.”
Not only does Rihanna talk about her past with Brown, but she gets way candid about her sexual preferences and her very specific form of OCD. She also says she’s single and hasn’t dated anyone since breaking up with Dodger Matt Kemp in December.
A few excerpts — first, how she felt in the aftermath of the Brown incident:
“I put my guard up so hard. I didn’t want people to see me cry. I didn’t want people to feel bad for me. It was a very vulnerable time in my life, and I refused to let that be the image. I wanted them to see me as, ‘I’m fine, I’m tough.’ I put that up until it felt real.”
About that obsessive compulsive thing:
“[If] something isn’t even, it weirds me out — like if my girlfriend hits me on the right side of my butt, it feels numb on the left.”
On her bedroom preferences:
“I like to take charge, but I love to be submissive. Being submissive in the bedroom is really fun. You get to be a little lady, to have somebody be macho and in charge of your sh**. That’s sexy to me. I work a lot, and I have to make a lot of executive decisions, so when it comes to being intimate, I like to feel like I’m somebody’s girl.”
“I like to be spanked. Being tied up is fun. I like to keep it spontaneous. Sometimes whips and chains can be overly planned – you gotta stop, get the whip from the drawer downstairs… I’d rather have him use his hands.”
Her latest single is titled “S&M.” The full interview hits newsstands Friday, but visit Rolling Stone for more excerpts, photos and video from the cover shoot.