With her new single, “Skyscraper,” climbing the iTunes charts, former Disney star Demi Lovato is sure to have plenty of press in the upcoming weeks. She sat down with Ryan Seacrest to discuss her struggle with bipolar disorder, anorexia, bulimia, and cutting — and to talk about her new outlook on life.
“I was struggling with depression as early as 7 years old,” she says, admitting that even at such a young age, she experienced “suicidal thoughts and things like that which I knew was abnormal for a kid.”
She believes that if her bipolar disorder had been diagnosed earlier, she may have avoided some of the problems that forced her into a treatment facility last year. “Looking back I was unmedicated for so many years and it led to so many problems,” she says. Now, though, she’s got the tools to understand her disease. “It’s a daily journey and it’s definitely going to be a struggle that I’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life.”
Though she tries to keep a positive outlook, she does still have bad days. “Sometimes I’m just like, ‘Why couldn’t I have been born normal?’ And it sucks, but that’s how it is with addiction. It’s going to be a daily battle and I’m not going to be perfect.”
Lately, the good days haven’t been too few or far between. “Today I’m really happy, and I’m really excited about life,” Lovato says. “I don’t know what could happen tomorrow but I know that if something did happen tomorrow I would keep trying.”