bachelorette alcoholism meredith phillips 'The Bachelorette's' alcoholism battle: Meredith Phillips speaks outMeredith Phillips was a beautiful, happy woman when she appeared on Season 2 of “The Bachelorette” back in 2004. But she has since been dealing with struggles in her life, including a battle with alcoholism.

“For years I’d wake up every day feeling like I was hit by a truck,” Phillips tells People in a new interview. She reveals that at times, she’d drink more than 20 bottles of wine in one week and was blacking out almost every day.

“I realized I was going to kill myself. There wasn’t another path for me other than to stop,” Phillips says. “I’m finally starting to live my life again. … I need to get back in the gym. I should really be taking better care of myself. But I really can only focus on one thing at a time right now.”

Now Phillips says she’s 150 days sober, which is certainly a step in the right direction. Read the full story is in People’s new issue, on newsstands Friday, May 24. The new season of “The Bachelorette” premieres Monday, May 27 at 8 p.m. ET/PT on ABC.