CopperCab, a YouTube vlogger formerly known as Michael Kittrell, posted a powerful video Tuesday (Aug. 2) coming out as transgender and revealing that she identifies as Claire.
“I, uh, I haven’t made a video in five months because I’ve been going through HRT because I’m transgender,” she says at the top. “I’m trying to be strong because I wasn’t even gonna make this video, I was just gonna leave YouTube completely … but I feel like I’m stronger now, more so than I’ve ever been because I’m learning to accept myself and I’m learning to be more comfortable in my own skin.”
Claire goes on to explain how different from everyone else she has always felt, but she’s been feeling this way for a long time. In fact, she was preparing to transition when appearing on the Reelz channel show “Hollywood Hillbillies.” But it was really hard for her to finally come out publicly.
“It’s funny — I mean, it’s not — but you ever play like a Zelda game and you’re fighting a boss and you know when you find its weak spot, you attack it a lot? Well, one reason I never came out before, especially on the Internet, is because I felt like a monster and I felt like if I exposed my weak spot, everyone would attack me on that and I didn’t think I could handle that,” she says.
But Kittrell says she is not going to live another year of her life pretending to be someone else. “I’m going to be myself whether you accept that or not.”
The comment section almost entirely thinks she is doing this as some kind of gag or publicity stunt, which Kittrell anticipated would happen.
“I know there’s gonna be haters in the comments and I’m just gonna not pay them any attention,” she says. “I have definitely exaggerated in the past, I haven’t necessarily trolled, but I have definitely been somewhat of a crazy character on the Internet and I know a lot of people are going to think this is just another one of those put-ons, but honestly I can’t put on a mask anymore … I feel like myself, I feel more comfortable than I ever have been, even if my makeup’s not that good.”
“I am a woman in every sense of the word, I just don’t have the outer appearance, but I’m going to continue to work on that,” Kittrell concludes. “I hope that you can all learn to accept me even though most of you probably won’t. But this is me — my name is Claire and this is the beginning of my life. Wish me luck.”