Although many have theorized that Glover was leaving behind the character of Troy Barnes in order to pursue his rap career (under the name Childish Gambino) or to explore additional TV options, Glover’s Instagram notes indicate that his personal fears and problems are mostly to blame.
The first message, handwritten on hotel stationery reads as follows:
“I didn’t leave Community to rap. I don’t wanna rap. I wanted to be on my own. I’ve been sick this year. I’ve seen a bunch of people die this year. This is the first time I’ve felt helpless. But I’m not on that. Kept looking for something to be in with. Follow someone’s blueprint. But you have to be on your own.”
Glover followed with:
“I feel like I’m letting everyone down. I’m afraid people hate who I really am. I’m afraid I hate who I really am. I’m scared people will find out what I masturbate to. I’m afraid I’m here for nothing. I feel that this will feel pretentious.”
Many who have dealt with ambition or depression may identify with the next Instagram:
“I’m afraid this is all an accident. I’m scared I’ll be Tyrese. I’m afraid Dan Harmon hates me. I’m scared I won’t know anything ever again. I’m scared I never knew anything. I’m afraid I’ll regret this. I’m afraid this doesn’t matter at all.”
Whatever these messages mean, Glover does also have professional reasons to leave “Community.” A holiday album set to be released in December may or may not happen (the label doesn’t seem to want to). The actor also has a deal to develop and star in “Atlanta,” a music-themed comedy for FX.
Glover is currently expected to appear in five episodes of “Community” Season 5.