If you haven’t gotten a chance to read Zosia Mamet’s regular column in Glamour magazine, it is highly recommended you give at least one of them a read. The “Girls” star’s writing is relatable, funny and above anything else — honest. Mamet was especially truthful with readers in the September issue of the publication, where she opened up about her battle with an eating disorder.
“Do you have a secret?” The actress asks readers. “Is your secret something that could kill you, a silent gnawing feeling
that’s slowly melting you away, little by little, something deadly that
nobody else can see? Mine is. And it is this: I’ve struggled with an
eating disorder since I was a child. This struggle has been mostly a
private one, a war nobody knew was raging inside me. I tried to fight it
alone for a long time. And I nearly died.”
Mamet goes on in the article to describe when she felt her problem first began, her day to day battles and where she stands now on the issue.
The actress, who revealed she “wanted to die” at age 17, says she believes to be in the final stages of her fight saying, “Here’s how I think of my eating disorder: I’m an addict in recovery. I was told I was fat for the first time when I was 8. I’m
not fat; I’ve never been fat. But ever since then, there has been a
monster in my brain that tells me I am — that convinces me my clothes
don’t fit or that I’ve eaten too much.”
Mamet reveals in Glamour, it was her dad, the award-winning playwright and director David Mamet, she credits with her recovery saying, “My dad eventually got me into treatment. He came
home one night from a party, took me by the shoulders, and said, ‘You’re
not allowed to die.’ It was the first time I realized this wasn’t all
about me. I didn’t care if I died, but my family did. That’s the thing
about these kinds of disorders: They’re consuming; they make you
egocentric; they’re all you can see.”
You can read the rest of Mamet’s emotional journey, as well as some shocking statistics about eating disorders in today’s time here.